Why are there so many problems around at the minute? There are the large scale ones like war and the economy and that’s the government, but I mean with people. The people around me. I have my mental problems, whatever’s going on in there. But everyone seems to have problems. Facebook used to be full of “Lol”s or “HAHA”s, but now it’s full of scorn and sadness and anger. There’s not as much laughter as there was before. There is still laughter, but it’s almost as though it’s on show. No one is happy at the minute. I don’t know why. It seems that since July everyone has had problems, and even before then problems were occuring. It’s like a building is starting to crack, we each represent a floor. Before all the floors were fine, maybe the occasional crack or hole but they were filled. Now, every floor is about ready to collapse. Why is now so different that out of the 130+ friends I have on Facebook 130+ are all having the shit thrown at them? Why? Why? Why now? What makes now so special? It’s getting to the point where there’s nearly nowhere to go for optimism. Nowhere. Jokes aren’t told as readily. Laughter isn’t hurt to as much of an extent as before. Sure you still hear it, but it’s not genuine like before. Now it’s put on as a mask to hide what is really going on. Why? It can’t be the economy because it’s not just the poor and middle class. It can’t be the war because it’s been going on forever. So what is it? Why is everyone depressed? Why are they being made to be depressed is the better question? What is going on with the world? Was their too much happiness? Were people too happy? The worst thing for me is that these problems exist and I can’t do anything to help. Everyone is going around upset, depressed, angry, and whatever and I can’t do anything. Jokes don’t help anymore, they are just a cover. Laughter just sets you apart from everyone else because they aren’t laughing. Nothing is cheering anyone up. The world seems to have stopped, it’s like no one can get out of this perpetual cycle of depression, bad thing, more depression, bad thing, less depression, worse thing. Everything is on a scale of depression now, not on a scale of happiness. If only this were different. Why is there nothing I can do? It breaks my heart to see all my friends having to put on a smile. I hate it when someone else is upset. As people can atest if I ask how you are and you say ok, I’ll ask “only ok”. Why only ok? What’s wrong? Do you need help? WHAT’S GOING ON? PLEASE, I WANT TO HELP. But no, it won’t happen. I’m helpless to do anything while this goes on. The only reason that I’ve kept going for so long is the thought that things can only get better because they always do. But are they going to this time? I’m beginning to question my own optimism. What happens if it doesn’t? Is everyone going to just walk around depressed forever? I hope not. Why is everything going wrong at the minute? Why are peoples’ lives so shit? Why? WHY? I WANT TO KNOW. What’s going on? When will it end? Will it end? I hope so. I hope so. Especially because that’s the only thing left…Hope. That’s the only positive thing left. Hope. Hope. I hope that things get better, but even hope is starting to dwindle. And if it eventually diminishes, what will evryone do? There will be nothing to lead anyone on.

Hope. Hope. Hope. Hope. Hope. Hope. Hope is the last thing we have, the most important thing we have. Why can’t this make things better? Why? why?

HOPE.